Loss of Father
How to Start the Essay About My Father’s Death: A List
1. Here’s a piece of advice. While spending the afternoon with your dying father, don’t ask Alexa to play the songs of Judy Collins which, once
January 24, 2024
1. Here’s a piece of advice. While spending the afternoon with your dying father, don’t ask Alexa to play the songs of Judy Collins which, once
Golden streams journey to Earth from the sun aiming for blooms in the fields where they run rising and shining with pigments that stun growing
Two words. That’s all it took for the persistent, gnawing fear that had been lurking in the depths of my mind to materialize suddenly. One
To write about grief is not to compose
for there is no way to structure the messy meanness of ‘friends’
who avoid me, say you would be dead if it wasn’t for me,
A month today, how is that possible?
I wash your floors clean your loo then sit in your māra
the one we replanted yesterday thinking of you soon I will
be gone from here with only memories of you in this place
How can I go without knowing where you are, other than in the box of ashes I carry?
I have no compass for this path but oceans of tears
and landscapes of kōhatu sit in my puku a dreadful dead weight
wedged between two chests of drawers, I sit
bereft, a rākau stripped of leaves…
The preceding is an excerpt from Available As Is: A Midlife Widow’s Search for Love published by She Writes Press. Copyright 2022. Used with permission. No one
The preceding is an excerpt from Available As Is: A Midlife Widow’s Search for Love published by She Writes Press. Copyright 2022. Used with permission. In the
The roots spread,
they deeply propagate
in the unknown land.
